Someone that tease me like for fun and i know he is nice met a car accident and lost part of the memory... i really felt sad and what made me realised is really spending time with ppl we enjoy and nt too late
Today I was really affected by work by him by how life is short and brittle... i was dame bad
to be honest i think i made my team members angry cause i was pissed off with work that i was helping cause what i heard is they do then pass to me.. i host... but i cannot sit there do nothing so.... i try helping but i got impatient...
Next i reallly think tooo hard for me to take it so i decided to talk to some ppl around me... they ask me to find courage to talk it out... then really affected me till i msn and i talk... but again he was busy. I dun know if he was busy or he was avoiding cause it really stopped like last month... i feel really heartach is like ttm. cause he felt nothing lor.. i wanna be there for him like always cause he has been there for me at the right time... so yah i did try to talk to him. i chat with him in a convo with less than 20 lines with a chatty person for me.. i had to think what to ask.. and how to ask cause i was really looking forward for just a time with him. the reason is cause its his big 2... i dun know lah but... i really just wanna watch a movie and pass the gift... the rest i dun really care... i dun really ask for much but his reply was "i'm not sure either" can u belive it??
I really feel like losser... when i am not even at my peak i roll down the moutain. its that confidence in me that have been eaten up by someone... i know i miss but what to do... i will give up jus give me some time...
Frens either out for trip, school trip and enjoying holiday. And my frens who always eat with me are heading to beijing not much close ones left.... i know i will miss them... y is it so hard to get through things in life? is not that its difficult maybe i just wanna be a computer that shutdown, hybernate and delete its own info... SAVE all friends and family members!
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