my owl click!

hello! i am so... tired and my life is pissing me off.. i am at my low moments! i totally lost my confidence in myself.. i dun know what am i... i just wana go on my high.. can i be hang there ?.. well studing overnight i see GOd working .. but i just kept quiet... well is just i wanna sleep then i can feel GOD asking me to wake up and dun waste time! i feel like going gym.. to let this sweat off.. i feel useless .... where is the rachel i know?... i just hope i am in im dreams and neve wake up... i dun know what is next.. i just lost the war in studies! when will i see light? i guess it has always been there just yet to be found... y they wish and they get but i dun ? really tired and exhausted?.. i guess it was just all an excuse! wake up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!