begining and the end....

i am losing myself.. today was a begining and a ending.. i tot this is what i wanted.. but i really love him.. i cannot stop all this.. y did this happen? even other ppl ask me how long was it today... what can i do? just tell me how to walk?... u can treat it like nothing.. what am i... watch what i say was what u say... did i ever ask for anything ? today was suppose to be for... what is this all about? a game that i will lose?.. did u play with all ur heart and mind?.. sorry perharps is too hard for me... for i take it with a big risk... what is this? i never ask anything or expect it... may be it was me playing it all along.. and i drag u in? am i really happy now ? i really dun know and i am really lost... i dun know how to walk on... i ask and hope and request.. i tried all i can.. u feel nothing... fine i get lost...i really dun know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!but i know i really love you! 你真的觉得你会开心你就走吧！对不起我没有你这样的伟大因为我爱你太深了。就让我在此为你而哭，大大声的哭出心的痛。你要开心让我带走你的痛苦你的麻烦。我对你的爱真的直到这里吗？我无法再走下去了。。。。。。。